My Journey of Discovery - 1

I walk down the street a little nervous. It's less than a ten minute walk, if I walk briskly I can be there in five minutes. With every step my nerves increase. I can still change my mind, I think to myself. I can go back and pretend I never started this.

A few months ago I couldn't sleep. I went back downstairs and turned on the TV. Thoughtlessly I have been zapping until I came across a channel with kissing, naked people. Typically, these are not porn channels. It turns out to be a documentary about BDSM. There is nothing else on TV, except for the necessary contact commercials and telecom shit, so I keep watching. What I see piques my interest. I always thought it was about humiliating, belittling and hurting, but that's not the case. There must be more or they wouldn't enjoy it as much.

As I watch the program it becomes clearer to me. It is about a couple with a dominant man and a submissive woman. The woman has her own business, but really enjoys being submissive. She doesn't have to make decisions, she doesn't have to make choices. She just has to undergo and enjoy. In everyday life she is strong and confident, in play she is submissive and allows herself to be used.

And she enjoys it.

The following days I continued to look on the internet. Movies, but also websites. I became more and more curious. Is already knew when watching the documentary. I wanted to try this! I always felt submissive, I never wanted to be in charge of anything. It suddenly becomes so clear to me! I just have to experience this. It seemed so thrilling and exciting to be able to surrender. In my mind's eye I already saw myself tied to the bed with a blindfold over my eyes. It seems so very horny to me

But how? I can hardly place an advertisement on Marktplaats!

I came across a website where people could talk to each other and also find contacts. I created a profile and posted a message. Naturally, the necessary reactions came in. Understandably, what guy doesn't want a 19-year-old girl?

I came into contact with Nico, a 54-year-old single man with no children. Where some wanted to be addressed as You and Master, Nico was light-hearted. He was fine with me just saying you to him and using his name. The extra titles added little to him, and he certainly didn't want to burden someone without experience with it.

I have decided to meet him at a water. Secluded enough to talk quietly, but also enough people walking their dogs in case it turns out to be a sadistic rapist. That's where I first saw him. My father was already starting to thin his hair, but Nico didn't. Nico still had a full head of black hair. It only thinned out a bit at the crown, but that is only noticeable if you pay attention. He has a tummy, but I didn't care. He has a shot chin and looks neatly groomed.

The conversation was relaxed and we felt a click, despite the age difference. We let it sink in for a while, but I knew right away; he would introduce me to BDSM. He would help me find what I'm looking for. But what was that?

Oh, I'm so excited I forgot to tell you who I am! My name is Eline and I am 19 years old. I have blonde, straight hair that reaches to my elbows. I have a slim figure and a C cup. I am about 168 cm tall and have blue-green eyes. I'm wearing blue jeans and a purple sweater with a V-neck. I'm wearing simple ankle boots. Under my clothes I have a simple black thong and bra on.

I take a deep breath and walk to the front door. I press the bell and wait nervously for Nico to answer. Luckily I don't have to wait long.

I am greeted warmly and he lets me in.

Do you want something to drink?

he asks me. He is wearing jeans and a dark blue shirt with a white T-shirt underneath.Tea, please,

I answer. My god, I'm really super nervous. He takes my coat and hangs it on the coat rack. He goes into the kitchen and makes tea. He himself takes a glass of soda.

We sit inside on the couch and put the drinks on the table.

Nervous?

he then asks.

I nod.

Decent, yes.

He puts his leg on the couch and turns a little to make it easier for him to look at me.

Today we take it easy

he says.

No conditions today. We're going to get to know each other. No stop words for today. If you want me to stop just say so.

I grab my tea cup. Although he seems very relaxed and reassures me that it won't get too intense I'm still nervous. I carefully drink my tea. Actually it's still a bit too hot, but I have to do something, otherwise I'll go crazy with the nerves.

I'll show you the playroom in a minute,

says Nico calmly.

Then you can get a bit of an idea of ​​what to expect.

I finish my tea and put my empty glass on the table.

Get up and get undressed

says Nico.

I take a deep breath for a moment. With slightly trembling fingers I take off my ankle boots and socks. I want to grab my jersey, but then Nico interrupts my movements by saying:

I said get up. Then you take off your clothes.

Oh god, I can't do this. I stand up and take off my sweater. I drop it onto the arm of the couch. With slightly trembling fingers, I unbutton my pants, pull down the zipper, then lower my pants.

stretch your legs,

I hear Nico say. I try to do what he says, but it's hard. I eventually manage to get out of my pants and put them on my sweater. I'm only in my underwear now. Nico watches quietly. Not a single movement escapes him as he watches immobile as I show more and more of myself. It feels very strange, especially since he is not doing anything and just has his clothes on.

I put my hands behind my back and undo the bra strap. I pull down the bra and place it on top of my clothes. There I am, just in a string. Still he says nothing, he watches patiently. I grab the straps of my thong and lower them. I try to keep my legs straight as my hands go to my ankles. I get out and put my thong with the rest of my clothes.

I'm completely naked in the room. My arms hang next to my body, I don't know how to position myself. The curtains are open. His garden has a fence on the edge. Behind it is a primary school, although I doubt anyone can see anything. There are translucent curtains that also limit the view when you look inside.spread your legs,

he says. I do what he says without saying anything.

Put your hands behind your neck,

he says.

I want to get a good look at you.

I do this too. In this position my breasts come forward a little. I feel so strange, so naked. So displayed. He just sits on the couch.

Turn around,

he says. I do this too. I intertwine my fingers behind my neck. Oh god, what am I doing

I have no idea what he is doing, I dare not look behind me. I can almost feel his eyes on my skin.

Place your hands on your knees and keep them straight.

I bring my hands to my knees so that I am bent forward. My legs straight, my ass back, my breasts hanging down freely. My nipples are getting a little hard.

I startle when I suddenly feel two warm hands on my buttocks. I take a deep breath to calm myself. I hear him get up. His hands slide over my buttocks, gently caressing and probing.

beautiful buttocks,

I hear him say.

Those will look nice when I've made them nice red.

Oh dear, what have I started.

His hands slide down my back. I see him standing next to me, but can't see his face. I dare not turn my head to look at him. I don't know what to say either. That is probably not expected.

I feel his hands on my breasts. He has typical male hands. A lot heavier than mine. Two of his fingers are as wide as three of mine, maybe even wider. He squeezes my cracks. Hard enough to make me gasp, but not hard enough to be painful. He knows how to stay exactly on the border between pain and pleasure.

Stand up straight

he says. I do as he says and he puts his hand between my legs. His fingers slide over my pussy lips. I gasp, but don't say anything. I spread my legs and put my hands behind my neck again.

Well done,

he says calmly. He pushes my lips apart and I feel a finger slide past my opening. I move my hips slightly and moan softly. I am so very excited. No, excited is still an understatement. I'm not excited, I'm horny. horny as hell.

He withdraws his hand.

That looks good,

he says.

You feel good. Come upstairs and I'll show you the playroom.

He gestures to the hallway. I walk in front of him and in the hallway I hesitate for a moment.

go upstairs,

he says.

I awkwardly climb the stairs. I have no idea what to expect upstairs or where to go. I carefully walk ahead of him, step by step.

Suddenly he put his hand between my legs, pushed a finger into my pussy and pushed it in forcefully, pushing me up the stairs. I squeal at this unexpected action, but say nothing. On the landing I see four closed doors and a white, wooden attic staircase. Nico points to the doors.

My office, that's the bedroom, that's a mirror room and that's the bathroom.

He opens the door to the mirror room. A gentle nudge on my back lets me walk into the room. Behind it is a large cupboard that hides two walls in an L shape. There are mirrors on the doors, from top to bottom. He points to the first door.

It's empty, that will be your locker. We can keep some nice stuff in there for you.

I don't know what to say. A little awkward I stand in the middle of the room, naked. I find it strange to be able to see myself so much, so naked with him standing behind me fully clothed.

He comes closer and puts his hands over my breasts.

Don't be so insecure, Eline. You have a divine body, you can be proud of that. You have no idea how nice it is to be able to hold such a young girl in my hands.

I shyly look in the mirror and watch his hands knead my breasts.

Come on, let's go upstairs

he says and lets go of me. I'm going back up the landing. After he points to the attic stairs, I lead him upstairs. There is an old desk in the attic and I see a closed door. Nico opens the door and puts his hand on my lower back to push me inside. Not a hard push, but soft, just the gentle push I need.

The playroom actually looks very innocent. It might as well have been a guest room. Behind the door is a wooden cabinet with drawers. There is an old blanket box over the sloping roof. In the corner is a comfortable chair with padded armrests.

There is a small table with a stand on it with three candles. There is a large double bed with metal bars, both at the head and foot end. Only the bed reminded me of BDSM; a red hoof sheet with a black duvet on it. Actually, I expected more from it.

Nico comes to stand next to me, still fully clothed.

I thought I better make it look like a guest room,

he says calmly.

But in a few minutes, this is a fun playroom.

He points to the ceiling. I see some metal hooks in the support beams.

A clothesline can be hung for guests,

he says calmly.

But for you I can hang a chain, a hammock, a tackle Turn around.

I look behind me and see a strange table. A smooth, leather cushion with metal tubes underneath. The whole stood on wooden beams with wheels underneath. It looks a bit like a strange massage table. Or an old-fashioned gynecologist's table.That's an operating table

he explains.

Comes from World War II. They never used these. Shortly after production, the war ended and they sold the remnants.

Only now do I notice that the sloping roof is finished with slats. He pushes them aside and pulls a chest out from under the storage space. He opens it so I can see the necessary fittings of the table.

With these things I can fasten all of you. Your arms, legs Even your head.

He shows me a simple hook.

Here they hung a blood bag, but you can also hang a chain with some nipple clamps on it.

He drops it back in the bin.

I can also tell the height, and I can also adjust the backrest up or down.

I don't know what to say. This turns me on and I secretly hope that he wants to tie me up already, but he said not to do that now. I look around the room and try to imagine what he can do in this room.

Sit on the bed

he says after a pause. I sit down and see that he has taken off his shirt. He throws his T-shirt over the chair. He unbuttons his pants and takes them off, underwear and all. His cock is bigger than I expected and already pretty hard.

Give me a blow

he says.

I am a bit nervous. I've had a boyfriend before, but never had a cock in my mouth. What should I do with it? Sucking it? To lick? Just move up and down? I've seen videos, of course, but that's different from doing it yourself. I jerked off my ex, but never gave a blow job. I can't do this

He puts his hand on the back of my head and pushes my face towards his cock. I put my fingers around the trunk of his cock and gently run my tongue along his head. I can't believe I'm doing that! I don't dare try hard. Carefully I lick his head. I taste his pre-cum. A separate taste. Salty, but also a little sweet. I can't describe it, but it's not dirty. I run my tongue over the trunk and then back to his head. I gather my courage and take his head in my mouth. I gently close my lips in his head and gently move my head forward and back.

You better try a little harder

I hear him say above me.

That thing is sensitive to touch, but you don't really hurt it that easily. You can be a little harder and rougher.

With a little more confidence I press my lips together a little. There is more pressure on his cock. I hear him moan above me.

If so,

he says with pleasure.

Use your hand, move it along my cock.

I obediently move my hand to my mouth. My hand caresses his cock where my mouth can't reach. His cock is rock hard, but I can hold it in my mouth.

Put your other hand around my balls,

he says.

Play with it. Gently, let them slide between your fingers.

I obediently put my free hand around his balls. He moans with pleasure and starts to move with his hips.

If so, that's how you do it wonderfully. Use your tongue. Press it just below the rim of my glans.

I do as he says and run my tongue along his head. I feel a shock go through his cock. Yes, I have discovered a very sensitive spot! I have to remember that one.

He grabs my head with both hands and starts to move in it. He goes back and forth in my mouth quietly.

You're doing a good job,

he says with pleasure.

Use your tongue. Oh yes, if so.

Enjoying my mouth he keeps moving back and forth.

If I increase the pace a bit he takes his cock out of my mouth.

Not yet,

he says.

I'm not done with you yet.

He pushes me back.

Lie down on the bed and grab the bed with your hands.I obediently lie on my back and grab the bars of the headboard.

Don't let go or you'll go over the knee,

he warns. I have no doubt whether he would or not. I obediently hold onto the bed while he bends over.

I feel his tongue go over my pussy, between my lips. I groan and squeeze the bars I'm holding. Oh, how delicious this is! I feel his tongue slide up and down between my lips. He presses it against my opening without going in.

Then I feel his tongue on my sensitive clit. I spread my legs a little wider and close my eyes. I moan loudly and press my ankles into the mattress. I feel his fingers slide over my stomach. He makes them go up until he finds my breasts. He puts his hands over my breasts and squeezes them gently. I'm arching my back and feeling so horny It's been a while since I've slept with someone and this tension is definitely driving me crazy. I hardly know this man, this is the second time I see him!

He takes my nipples between his fingers and rolls them between his fingers. Oh, how delicious this is! I squeeze the bars and throw my head back. My god, I'm so horny!

He squeezes my nipples a little. I feel a jolt of pain go through my breasts and a shock goes through my clit. Oh, how delicious this is! I moan loudly and pull my legs up. I feel a tension build up in my pussy. I'm almost there!

Oh God,

I groan.

ooh! Do not stop. Please don't stop. ooh!

It feels like electricity is shooting out from my lower abdomen through my clit! Uncontrollably I pull my legs up and then stretch them to the limit. My god this was amazing!

He's getting off me. I vaguely hear him walk to the cupboard and open and close a drawer. I'm still panting from the intense orgasm. My God! I let go of the bed and brush my hair from my face.

I feel Nico sit on the bed again. He puts his hand on my leg.

Recovered a bit?

he asks.

I open my eyes and look at him. I smile happily.

That was amazing,

I say.

He lets his eyes run unabashedly over my body. I want to put my legs together, but he stops me by pushing my leg back.

Don't hide yourself

he says.

You have nothing to be ashamed of. I want you to be accessible to me.

I let my legs down, although I feel a little uncomfortable.

Are you ready for the next round?

I nod and look at him curiously. I then see that he has taken out a condom. Oh shit, this is actually going to happen!

I wait nervously as he puts on the condom. His cock is thicker than my ex's, I hope this won't hurt. I can't go back now.

He gets between my legs.

pull up your legs,

he says. I do what he says. My breathing quickens; of nerves, but also because I'm just so horny! I look into his eyes as he leans forward and puts his hand on my shoulder. With his other hand he grabs his cock. Oh god, this is really going to happen! I'm having sex with a man I hardly know who is old enough to be my father! My God, I'm out of my mind!

I moan as I feel him enter my pussy. My god, he feels so fat! I spread my legs a little wider. He puts his other hand on my other shoulder. I squeeze my eyes shut. It doesn't hurt, but it's close. It's like losing my virginity for a second time.

He pulls back a little and then comes back forward, this time even deeper. He repeats this a few times until he slides all the way into me. I moan loudly, grab the pillows and squeeze them.

Now that he is completely inside me, he moves back and forth quietly so that I can get used to him. Now that he is completely inside me, the uncomfortable feeling has disappeared and I only feel pleasure.

You're nice and tight

he says to me.

And so very wet.

I blush a little, but I don't have long to feel uncomfortable. He leans on his hands and starts thrusting harder into me. Oh, how delicious this is! I moan in pleasure and look at him. I can't stop moaning, he fills me up and moves at such a wonderful pace.

Oh yeah!

I shout with pleasure. I pull the pillows to my head.

Oh yes, so tasty!I feel his hands on my breasts again. Now he squeezes a little harder. It's a little painful, making me gasp, but the pleasure I feel deep inside my pussy is stronger. I throw my head back into the pillows and arch my back.

He grabs my thighs and suddenly starts thrusting into me quickly and deeply. I can no longer control my body. I feel his thighs against my buttocks, apparently he lifted me up a bit. I'm holding the pillows, but I can't bend my arms or let go of the pillows. I can only enjoy this wonderful feeling.

With a loud scream I come. It's like something is exploding in my stomach, deep in my cunt. A shock wave goes through my clit. He keeps thrusting into me mercilessly. Moaning and grunting he cums. He squeezes my aftershocking thighs a little.

One more time he gives a hard thrust in my pussy. I moan loudly and squeeze my eyes shut.

He drops onto his back next to me. We are both panting from our orgasm. Small jerks are still going through my cunt and my legs. Oh gosh, how delicious this was!

Same time next week?

he asks.

This was so good, so intense I surrendered to the delicious pleasure. This feeling is addictive. I want more. I look at him mischievously.

I can also come earlier next week. About ten hours, then I can take a shower first. Then I can stay until five o'clock.

He smiles softly.

I think I'm lying next to a nymphomaniac. Ten o'clock next week. Then we'll see if we can do some exciting things.

A tingling goes through my sensitive button. I can't wait already.

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Autobiographical? Who knows