Crossing the Bridge - 1

Forty-three, just divorced and there I was. I always thought I had a nice relationship. House tree little animal, everything done, until my girlfriend told me one evening.

I have a boyfriend, I should have told you sooner, but I decided to move on with him.

Wham! My whole life turned upside down. I tried desperately to glue things together, but it was useless.

I got the insight and retroactively admit that our relationship wasn't much anymore.

The family grind. That work.

Sex? Only during the holidays, besides jerking off to porn on the internet. That was about it. Me my hobbies my girlfriend her hobbies, at least that last one I always thought she was rolling instead of doing yoga with a colleague.

Well, let's not look back too much. I had to look ahead again.

The divorce and the associated reproaches brought something to the surface.

I can't blame you for watching porn my girlfriend said. You should have told me honestly that you also like guys.

I was speechless and blushed when she told me what she discovered on my laptop.

Yes, I like women, but in the meantime I fantasized more and more about horny guys who went wild with each other. The unrestrained horniness turned me on very much. I think stiff cocks are just beautiful to see. The harsh reality.

I thought maybe it was compensation for the lack of sex with my wife. But it wasn't, I had to admit if I was being honest. I find women beautiful and exciting, but so do men. A handsome guy unabashedly jerking off his nice hard cock, I was soon jerking off in front of my laptop screen as my fantasy ran wild as I sucked him or he fucked me or I. And bisexual threesomes with two men and a woman also turned me on very much in which a woman encouraged both men not to spare each other.

I collected pictures and videos, which I also threw away because I thought it was not possible. After all, I was in a relationship and didn't mind sharing my fantasies with my girlfriend. Well, that was not necessary in the end.

I tried to hold up a mirror to myself.

Yes, I also had my discoveries in my adolescence. In the bushes I looked curiously at girls' cunts, immediately crossing, while I unbuttoned my pants in exchange. It was all quite innocent.

Not everything, because I sometimes went fishing with my classmate Jules. Who talked a lot about sex. Near where we fished was an old bunker. Of course we went to look inside. And with Jule's directness one thing led to another, and soon we were jerking off with huge gobs of cum spurting from my cock in excitement. At that age, of course, we were stiff with testosterone. But I thought it had been a phase in my journey of discovering who I was and what my sexual preferences were. I met my girlfriend during my studies and during the first few years I didn't have a dick in my mind anymore. That is not entirely true.

I ran into Jules again at a reunion, but I'll never forget his thinly veiled horny look. I immediately tried to avoid him, my wife was there. He was also with his wife, Coby, a busty plump woman, with fiery, inquisitive eyes, so I immediately saw that she really liked it.

So you are Nico, she told me. I've heard a lot about you. If you're in the area you should drop by. Jule will like that. And so did I, she said, winking in a subordinate clause

That night I jerked off four times to those memories in the bunker, but also to that undisguised look of that Coby. However, I left it at that. It seemed impossible to me that there was also a click with my girlfriend. Time passed as we grew further and further apart.

Anyway, back to the present, I was on the street, as we had agreed, and I had to get my life back on track.

I found a flat, got things in order and decided not to sit down and mope that my secure but boring life was over.

Being alone again puts me on edge sexually. Suddenly I felt a huge need for sex again.

The first weeks in my new home, I unashamedly made up for the damage with myself. I ordered the full package of porn on my TV, walked around the house more naked than clothed, pulling my cock all over with the excitement I was looking for.

I ordered a fleshlight, which I used daily, bought an oversized dildo and a butt plug and let all my fantasies run wild. My anus turned into a cunt by itself and I was a slut who was up for anything. Especially with guys.

But of course that was all surrogate for real. Forty-three years and the realization that you like men more than you wanted to admit. I thought I had to do something with it, but I also shit my pants for fear of taking that step. A fantasy is safe, chasing it in real life, quite another.

After another lonely evening of another jerking session with myself, I sat behind my laptop, exhausted. I looked at some messages on Facebook and thought about whether I should install such a dating app.

I was really in doubt now.

Yes, I needed sex with a man or woman of flesh or blood, but to be out there alone I also found something like that. As hypocritical as the nits, of course. I had the most horny thoughts and raunchy dreams with myself as an object in them. But accepting that side of myself and living it, that was still a bridge too far.

And while I was reading a few messages on Facebook, I suddenly decided to enter Jules' name out of curiosity.

And yes, he was also on Facebook. I don't know if it was instinct, but my cock started to harden again with excitement.

I sent him a request to be friends.

I looked at his profile and I saw his Coby. A few pounds more, but just as fiery and delicious.

Soon a personal message from Jules appeared and we were chatting.

Hey Nico nice! How are you. You were supposed to come by after the reunion, remember?

I avoided going into it, but after the usual exchange of how things had gone, I did mention that I had just broken up.

So what are you watching? You don't think it's time to put the flowers outside, shall we go fishing together, that bunker is still there ;-)

My heart pounded in my throat.

You're pissing me off, that's a juvenile sin

Well not for me, you were ashamed of it, I would have liked to go further.

The text appeared in a subsequent message

Still followed by a licking smiley by the way.

My cock stood up rock hard as I tried to keep my wits about me.

What about your wife, isn't she called Coby? To change the subject and keep her distance.

Jules suddenly came very close!

Don't be so sanctimonious Nico, at that reunion you looked at her tits out of her blouse. She didn't invite you for nothing. We are a bi couple and swingers, she really thought I should invite you and your ex over. Never did, I had the impression that your ex was not right for you.

A striking observation with retrospective effect.

But seriously, how about next weekend. Just chatting a bit and we'll see you when it gets really nice. Nothing has to, everything is allowed.

Well?

To make a long story short. I agreed with Jules and his Coby to visit. That night my whole body ached from jerking at my wild thoughts of what was about to happen.

The immediacy of Jules, his beautiful cock that never quite left my memory and that I had imagined how it would feel when he fucked me or when I sucked him...

The unashamedly horny looks of his Coby, a woman with mega tits and ditto ass that would enchant any man. If I had fears and doubts about my desires, she would help me over them boldly, undisguisedly, and sternly if necessary. Everything about her exuded horny sex

They could do anything to me, I told myself, like a desperate slut finally giving in to his desires.

How tired do you look? said a female colleague. Orphaned?

No, watched a movie.

Surely a porno. Which title? she said defiantly. She was also single.

I smiled sheepishly and went to my desk.

The pre-cum kept seeping out of my dick.

I looked at my messages on my smartphone and saw a PM from Coby. Nice of you to come! Way too late of course, but we'll catch up ;-)

During the break I said I was going to run an errand. I drove off in the car to a deserted parking lot and stepped into the bushes and dropped my pants and pulled the tension out of my cock.

I pictured my cock sliding up and down Coby's ass as I sucked Jules at the same time.

My head was red and chapped a last drop trickled out of my head as I came moaning violently as all my glands felt sore. I realized that a new chapter of my life was beginning.